I used to be scared of people.
I wasn’t just afraid to talk to people; I was one of those girls who sat by herself in the library, avoided eye contact whenever possible, and was actually quite frightened of people remotely seeing me. Surprising, huh? Anyone who knows me at Jamestown Community College knows that I’m the complete opposite. I LOVE being around people. I talk a lot, laugh frequently, and don’t hesitate to go out and meet new individuals. So how is it possible that I changed so drastically, and what was I afraid of in the first place?
To answer the latter question first, I suppose I was afraid of the human mindset. People are critical; that’s just how we are born and raised to be. I avoided people as often as possible to constantly avoid criticism. I never took it as a good thing; I thought of it as people pointing out my flaws. I should have realized earlier that criticism helps make us better people, lovers, students, and friends by suggesting ways in which we can improve upon ourselves.
Then… how did I change?
A large portion of why I began to become more social was the dire need to grow up. We all do it; it’s something that we cannot stop. Rather than trying to prevent myself from maturing, I decided to try new things in my blooming adolescence. Of course, I began to attend college. There are people EVERYWHERE in every nook and cranny of JCC’s campus. So instead of ignoring people (which would have been impossible), I started to shyly introduce myself to others. In the *snap* of a finger, I began to make friends, and my heart pounded with joy. I was finally becoming the personable girl I had always wanted to be, all thanks to the wonderful decision to attend JCC.